🔗 Share this article Excruciating Agony: A Personal Struggle Against the Mysterious Pain of Cluster Headache Syndrome It was a gloomy weekday morning in the autumn of 2016. I worked as a educator, attempting to manage a new class, when a sharp sensation bloomed behind my right eye. Then came rapid stabs, like lightning bolts. As each class came and went, the pain eased and then came back with greater force. Multiple times that day I handed over a teaching assistant with worksheets and ran to the staff bathroom to soak my face with cool water. I took ibuprofen, but the pain remained unbearable. The headaches returned repeatedly that fall, and again in spring, soon forming an yearly pattern. September and October were the worst, then the late winter. I could predict the routine: aura in the morning, early pangs on the commute, full-blown agony in class by 9.30am. In 2019, a doctor finally sent me to a specialist and I was diagnosed with cluster headaches. Cluster headaches typically begin with severe discomfort behind one eye that lasts for three hours. About 1 in 1000 people suffer by the condition, and men are more frequently affected. Cluster headaches typically begin with sudden, severe agony around one eye that reaches its peak within a short time and continues for as long as three hours. Attacks come in clusters, every day or several times a day, and are accompanied by tearing eyes, drooping eyelids or face sweating. I have the episodic form, which occurs in seasonal cycles; some patients have continuous cluster headaches, characterized by the lack of long symptom-free periods. What connects patients is the intensity. One study scored the pain at 9.7 10, higher than bone fractures or pancreatitis. A separate discovered a significant percentage of cluster headache patients reported thoughts of self-harm during attacks; the number fell to four percent when they were pain-free. One patient, 74, a long-term patient from Pembrokeshire, finds this understandable. Her attacks started when she was two. “I would throw myself on the floor and bang my head. That was attributed to being spoiled,” she says. Her condition worsened through her youth. Alcohol in her teens, like several causes, made things more intense. After having sherry at her graduation party, she recalls hardly being able to see on the bus home. Her family often interpreted her attacks as drunken behavior. Support eventually came from her parent and then from her partner, her spouse. “I was very lucky to find such an understanding person,” she says. Hobbs found office work after moving, but often concealed her illness. She was fired from one job, partly due to time off during episodes. Her breakthrough diagnosis came in 2002 at a national neurology center. Still, the failure to plan daily activities around unpredictable attacks took its toll. She especially disliked being unable to plan outings, being seen as flaky as a co-worker, and even having to be cared for by her family during the incapacitation caused by the worst episodes. “It robs you of the simple liberties we don't value until they're gone,” she says. She remembers obtaining tickets for a major concert, only to have an attack inside a facility. Headaches have been documented throughout the ages. “The earliest account of headache comes by way of the ancient civilizations in antiquity,” write experts in a book on the subject. They attributed the disease to an evil entity who afflicted his sufferers' heads. Ancient healing records suggest bizarre treatments for what modern observers would classify as a migraine. In the medieval times, severe headache was recognised as a distinct condition, with therapies ranging from herbal concoctions to other, more superstitious remedies. It was a Dutch physician who provided the first comprehensive description of a cluster headache. In his medical observations, he describes a patient “afflicted with a very severe headache occurring and vanishing each day at specific hours”. Cluster headaches were only officially classified by international headache societies in the late 1980s. From the mid-20th century to the 1990s, they were believed to be caused by a problem with a key blood vessel which supplies blood to the head. Leading specialists in treating the condition note this. In the late 1990s, scientists published the results of a research project for which they had triggered attacks in patients and observed the attacks in a imaging machine. The results, featured in a prominent medical publication, showed increased activity of the a brain region, which is in charge for human circadian rhythm, when patients were in discomfort, and a deactivation when they recovered. In spite of such advances, identification remains delayed. Jamie Charteris's symptoms started in the 1980s and felt like “a modelling balloon being inflated behind my one eye”. GPs thought he had a sinus issue; he had four operations before eventually being diagnosed in 2014, after a physician looked up his symptoms. Neurologists say delays in diagnosing and managing happen because patients are rarely seen during an episode. “You're exhausted and low, but not in agony,” one says. He proceeds by eliminating other common head pain conditions, such as tension-type headache, before confirming cluster headaches. A detailed history is essential: on which part of the head do symptoms occur? For how much time? What season? Are there triggers, such as certain foods? Specific characteristics such as redness, sagging eyelids and stuffy nose help verify cluster headaches. Once identified, patients may be referred to specialist clinics. But a lot of first go to emergency rooms or are given inadequate treatments. Dorothy Chapman, 78, has suffered from the condition for most of her adult life, although she has been free from an attack since recent years. When she was in her twenties, she had her teeth pulled because dentists misunderstood her pain. She believes dentists still need greater awareness. When a sufferer sought help from a charity, it was Chapman who replied. The author recalls calling a helpline during an attack in early 2021; a calm volunteer guided me through oxygen therapy and medication until the attack eased. National guidelines on management recommend that patients are offered high-dose oxygen and/or a specific drug delivered by nasal spray. No oral painkillers or strong analgesics should be used. Prophylactic choices include a blood pressure medication, which apparently soothes the bouts of well-known people. But consultant neurologists argue the guidance need updating to reflect a clearer clinical process and help general practitioners avoid misprescribing. For episodic patients, the treatment window is everything: “The duration of the bout dictates the approach.” Brief bouts with infrequent attacks are handled with abortive therapy alone. More prolonged or more severe periods require preventives such as certain drugs, sometimes combined with corticosteroids. Many patients also receive a nerve block injection during a cycle – an injection into the side of the skull where the pain is that reduces nerve activity. The official guidance need updating to reflect a